Tuesday, August 3, 2010

re: He Liked It (so he put a ring on it)


I'm writing this with 24 days to go before I marry my favorite person in the world. I haven't made a whole lot of internet mention of my engagement or impending nuptials, but it is the biggest thing I've ever done, so it might just deserve a blog post or two.

When I first got engaged, people kept asking me if I was excited about it. I was never sure how to respond, because though I was excited to marry Derek, it wasn't exactly that patented giddy feeling that makes you giggle and walk around unable to think about anything else. The whole concept of wearing a diamond on my finger actually seemed rather surreal. I often feel this way with major events that I've anticipated my whole life. I always recognize that I am in the middle of something that I know is significant, but it never seems to exactly match up to whatever weird feelings of excitement that I imagined that I would have.

But, as our wedding date fast approaches, and the two of sit on my couch talking about the details of the big (read: expensive) party that we are throwing to celebrate it, I look at him and get really excited for many, many nights just like that, in patient discussion of whatever adventure the two of us are working on next. It still isn't a giddy excitement, per se - more of an overwhelming feeling of being with the right person who just fits me, and loving that we have an entire lifetime and eternity to be together. He is wonderful, and I am so, so lucky.

I was showing my mom pictures over the weekend of when Derek and I first met, in 2005. She said "What? We could have been doing this whole wedding thing five years ago?" I look at those pictures and know that at the time we were both still exploring other things, maybe not totally ready to let go of our single lives and the freedom that came from being unattached. Our friendship took its sweet time developing into what it is now, but let me tell you - I'm so excited to marry this man, and I'm not even upset that I'm not a Single Lady anymore.

(engagement photo by the ever-talented Aubrey Trinnaman, backdrop handdrawn by Dan and I)

13 comments:

two forks said...

i felt the same way (re. the non-giddiness factor) but i just knew it was right and i felt so calm and peaceful! i'm so happy for you! p.s. christian and i met 3 years before we ever dated dated!

michelle said...

Love this photo. Cuties.

So stoked for you both!

Bek said...

you guys are one hot couple. i'm so excited for you!

cropstar said...

congrats!! love the dress!

f*bomb. said...

I love this post so much and it makes me so happy to hear the way you describe your relationship that I keep writing things and re-writing them to try and express how well you've already expressed yourself that I'm just going to stop and say:
I love you.
I am so happy for you.
LOVE.
!

bex said...

aw, thanks ladies!

paul said...

congrats!!

Leslie said...

Congrats to both of you! And I have to say, it is reassuring to hear that I am not the only one who spent five years with one person in the process of becoming unsingle.

Senja said...

congrats!! :)
my husband is like that with all major things happening in his/our life. he needs to get used to it first. so i have learned to have patience with him.
an hour after we had gotten engaged - I was calling my family, my closest friends and writing an email to everybody. :)
i love the invitation - so fun!

Senja said...

ps: the patience is both ways. he also had to get used to me being so open and pro-active.

pepper said...

Love everything about this post. So happy for you (not giddy so much) but very happy.

eve said...

Yay! That is so exciting! I was wondering what was going on with you and Derek as I'd seen pictures of you guys in your previous posts. Enjoy your engagement!!! Oh, and try and journal about it as much as possible--pretty soon it'll just be a memory. Congratulations!

april said...

Love the picture! I'm so excited for you both, and can't wait to hear all about the big day (with pictures, of course!).